A's been in training for over a month now. It seems to be going well and he's passed every thing so far. It's strange because it's almost like he was never home. It feels so familiar to have him gone and be on my own. And maybe that's my problem. I like being on my own a little too much- when he comes home I get get prickly, like he's invading my space.
Lately when he comes home, I feel like he's critiquing and criticizing everything I've done while he's away. "Why did I buy this salad dressing? Why did I let Kidzilla do XYZ? Why are the measuring cups here?" Is it some coping mechanism for him to assert himself as still part of the family even though he's gone a lot? I realized though that if I were gone for a week and came home to a house filled with food I didn't buy and a schedule I didn't put together that I would probably feel a little disoriented as well. So I need to cut him a little more slack and realize that he's not being critical (mostly) and is just trying to get a feel for things. I know he knows I can run the family just fine in his absence and he trusts me not only to do it but also not to get so fed up with him being gone that our family falls apart. But he needs to work on that pilot need to be in control all the time as well- it's not a big deal if Kidzilla sleeps with his head at the foot of the bed. He needs to trust me on that one too.