Monday, March 23, 2015
I haven't posted for a while due to the fact that I had news but didn't want to post about it lest it could come back and haunt us later. In a "you must have been distracted and caused this crash" kind of way. But now it's looking like the news is better than we expected and we can begin to breathe and move forward again. Back in February, A went for his yearly neck ultrasound to monitor his post cancer status. And he came home *knowing* something was wrong just by the way the tech did the scan. And sure enough, a few days later, we got the call from the endocrinologist that something wasn't right and further testing was required. So we braced ourselves for the worst- cancer recurrence, another year + on LTD, the works. A even started telling people he expected to go off work again. He got the secondary testing done last week, which was followed by a phone call from the MD of which he can't recount anything except "it" being moderate. But he didn't know what "it" was- a tumor? Risk of reoccurance? A second kind of cancer? He made an appointment for two weeks later to meet with the MD. And so we were doomed to wait in this abyss of not knowing. Which I have no patience for. So I had A come down to the hospital where I work and we took a walk over to medical records and got the testing results and interpretation for ourselves. Which showed good news and no sign of anything. And then we could breathe again. And move forward with our lives. There will still be more to come, I'm sure, but it's funny how we immediately jumped to the worst conclusion. And it didn't even seem so bad. It's a known quantity and we are in a better off place now for support then we were several years ago. But still, nothing is better than something at this point.